what do i really want to do.

So nothing has been really going, so i havent been wanting to share about my boring days.
i'm gettting to that point again where i'm tired of boys and tired of going backwards and want something new!

so yea i have been blowing off a couple of my guys.


Now i am at the point where i'm like what do i want to do next??? school, job what!!
i applied to get a school grant, since i have no money for school but i don't know if i want to go to school for hair or finish my early childhood education. or just go and apply for mac or sephora, i know i'm a makeup artist but for some reason i get so scared and think that, that still wont be good enough and i wont get the job.
ugh i have also been so emotional.
i just wish i knew what my furture was!
i don't want to take the wrong path.

i really feel like taking a vacation away from everything and everyone and just be alone! i thinnk i would really love that.