Breakfast dor dinner.

Tuesday Tuesday.


Tuesday morning i ran some errands with dominick.

I was looking at some sexy pjs and he kept telling me no, i'm gonna tell pappa, which is grandpa and i said why you big tattle tale lol.



I was hoping to find something that would make me look some what sexy for chavez but after i bought it, i thought to myself why did i buy this if my clothes just come over and when i fall asleep i dont face him or cuddle with him?? oh well i bought it for myself for the nights that i am alone and want to feel sexy for myself, have to love and be comfortable with your self before you can be sexy for a lover. I still need to lose more weight though, but i am very proud of myself for losing to date 50lbs in the last 7 months would have loved it to be more but that is what i am workin on.

he was getting annoyed with my singing lol.

i tried this to my nails it should last 10days.

when i finally got home it was about 630pm and i really wanted breakfast for dinner so i went to the store to get some bread and cream cheese cause i wanted stuffed french toast but next time i will just go to ihop cause it wasn't how i wanted them to taste lol.

After that i cleaned up i didn't feel like having chavez over so i didn't say anything to him, i watched southland which was a very sad ending crazy cause i didn't see that coming.

then i went to bed early 11:15 is early for me :) and i slept like a baby.

You mean your not going to use 3 pillows tonight?

Monday seemed like it took forever to end, and i think it really did.

I guess my work didn't start till 11am after my brother went to work, which would have been nice to know what time he was going in, i mean i could have napped lol.

Dominick and i were just chilling watching tv, then we had our lunch and headed to the store.
I like going to big lots to find things that i need for cheap. I found some great bulk foods for under $5 bucks and i love special k.

came back home watched mickey mouse, he didn't nap till 3pm which is ok since his dad doesn't get home till 540pm. Mondays and Tuesday will be my omg days. since i don't get out at 4pm and go start to the gym when it isn't packed i get out at 6pm and i tried to go start to the gym, bad idea i was hungry since it was my dinner time, and it was so packed! i couldn't do any of the stuff that i usually do. i was only able to do a little after that more people where coming in so i just left.
After being at home for an hour, Chavez said he would come over and stay the night again, so i got up to shower, didn't get cute just put my pjs on and laid in bed, which was a bad idea because i feel asleep, i was so tried and cold. he always says around 10 but he is never on time. he finally called me 5 till 11pm telling me what he was doing an what not so i feel asleep again and he showed up at 12am, when monday was finally over.
all i was hoping for was for him to say he was really tired as well and go to sleep since he had to be up at 4am but no that didn't happen i knew that i would be the tired one and he would be the awake one, since sunday he was the tired one and i was the awake one.
So he woke me up, we got really busy, which was something i needed since sunday night busy part wasn't so long lol. but last night was ;)

it was something i needed cause after that i crashed out and i slept so comfortable! i think he did too cause he didn't really move or snore, i only woke up once and forgot he was there lol. anyway i think he woke up late cause he kept hitting snooze and cuddling with me but it wasn't good if he going to be late.
anyway over all a goodnight/early morning start to tuesday.

Its cause your Old.

Sunday.

Monday, Monday, but writing about Sunday.

Good morning!
I slept amazing!, freeze my butt off but it was still good.

Yesterday was suppose to be my lazy day, i was going to try and sleep all day but i couldn't. I ended up waking up around 1130am got dressed in my black and yellow because of course the steelers won last night whoop whoop :)

So i hung out with my mom for a while, went home around 4pm did some errands with my room matte. found some great deals at target, went home and cooked myself dinner and watched the steelers kick ass. Received a phone call from Chavez, chit chatted with him for a while, then i showered and got pretty/sexy since he was going to come over. finally he was going to come over i hadn't seen him since tuesday, he was suppose to come over friday, and saturday he had told me to be honset he feel asleep, i said its cause your old lol and you cant get on my level lol.

He showed up around 1045ish and this visit was the one that i wish could happen all the time.
Sometimes i love it when i am just being used for sex, for me it makes me feel naughty ;) but that will never happen cause i am good so he keeps coming back for more lol jk.
He walked in put his stuff down and came straight to me, right away we got busy with the i missed you kisses and more intense kisses and then off to the bedroom, but a very fast 15min maybe to fast lol, but it was still good. After that i could tell he was very tired, and hot since he was sweaty.
I freshen up, and went to turn the ac on went i got back he was in bed asleep lol, i wasn't tired so i had to force myself to sleep a little bit lol but i thought he looked so cute sleeping. He had to be up at 350am since he goes into work at 6am, i guess its kinda far, so after he showered and got handsome, he came and got busy with me ;) you know cuddled duh lol :p

After he left i turned the ac off since he was the one who was hot, and i got warm and was able to sleep for another two hours yay. anyway hope i have a good Monday and hope you all have a good one too.

Lunar Bingo.

Saturday.

I went to sleep late and i had to be up early for an interview, blah!
i woke up at 730am showered and got ready but i took my time and i was still done early i had an hour to just wait around till i left so i left my house at 910 and got to the location at 930 so i waited in my car till 10min before. I meet with the guy i guess it went pretty good everything just has to pass like my background and what not then HR should call me and offer me a job so i hope so.

After that i took a loooong way home it was such a nice moring i was driving with my windows down, stopped at my moms then finally went home around 1230, and stat around watching movies then i tried to take a nap but i couldn't so it was about 7 and i started to get ready to go out with my girls but not till 10 lol so i got done early again and i started watching another movie for an hour then left to go get my girls and we headed to fort mcdowell casino for midnight bingo, which is always fun dj playing great music food and drinks and my girls always a good time. :)
came home around 330am and had a goodnight sleep.
untill tomorrow for an update of a great sunday!

Shaved Pussy and Great friends.

TGIF!

Last night was friday night whoop whoop. The weekend finally came! ahh i was so ready to just relax and hang out with my friends.
I had a good morning woke refreshed. Work went by really fast i was able to wash my clothes geez i have a lot of clothes or correction gym clothes, i need to lose 10 more lbs then i will buy clothes cause by that time i wont be in between sizes i will be the smaller size lol.

So i got out of work at 11am! whoop whoop even tho on Fridays i always get out early around 1pm two hours earlier is always fine with me :)

so i went to the gym, i hate it that i cant find my headphones for my ipod, listening to my up fast beat music makes me wanna work out harder and faster, there for i sweat more and burn more.
the gym was good, not too packed around that time. i saw this guy again who i think looks like he can be my friends twin crazy! lol

After i was there which seemed like it was forever, i can home showered had my lunch and got ready to hang out with my friend. Did my hair and makeup got dressed and was ready to go i was so glad that i was ready before she said i'm here.

I went with her to go get a hair cut, she had so much hair!! long and thick! she wanted to get rid of her old color that she had on the bottom of her hair so she copped off her hair. She went shoulder length with long layers and long side swiped bangs, can we say cute!!!!!
and i love the way the lady styled her hair, she looked great.

After that was allot of driving we went to a couple of pawn shops i wanted to see how much i would for my camera, pshhh not even half or a 3rd of what i paid. so maybe i will just sell it online, not asking for much i just wanna get a new one.

We picked up my friends sister, then we went to chillis for dinner a late dinner but it wad good.
We headed back to my place for our famous drink shaved pussy its such a good girly drink loved it.
I waited for Chavez to come but he never showed up, so i went to bed at 2am now iits almost 9am i have an interview at 10am wish me luck.

My breakdown.

Today.

Its very hard for me to admit this, but yes i broke down today. I have no idea why i was doing so good. I guess it was one of those days where i needed to let it all out. I try really hard to be a positive person, but somehow i always seem to let the negative get to me.

I'm happy when i'm with my friend Chavez, he always seems to bring out the positive side of me, and i like always smiling around him. Another person in my life that i love talking to is my buddy, my boo, my soul mate Rudy! i love him and he always puts a smile on my face.

I'm not a fan of crying so i tend to keep it short, after all i'm not a sissy bitch lol.
I haven't heard from my SB nor have i tried to hear from him, i guess i'm giving him a chance to miss me :)
I think its just nights like these where instead of going to bed early and crying while listing to music i rather be filling that pain with some good sex :)

Well I'm glad this week is over, and the weekend is here i get to relax and sleep in kinda.

I made my bestie dinner tonight it was so good, grilled pork chops with apricot chili sauce, roasted cauliflower and tomatoes in olive oil yum-o and risotto. i love having her over, and my other bestie her sister also loved my dinner, she said it was like good pussy you just can't get enough. lol love you Bernie!

As always I'm praying for a better tomorrow.
i know things do come around, but i hope they make sense.

goodnight world.

The lonely Nights i will always hate.

Yesterday seemed like it took forever to be over with!!

I think I might have to start with how Tuesday night went before i get into Wednesday night.

Tuesday i had the day off from my "job" i don't really call what i do a job cause sometimes it doesn't feel like a job, but when i tell people that i take care of a two year old everyday from 7am to 4pm they always 'oh honey if you don't think that's a job your crazy taking care of a child is hard work'.

So i had an interview with a staffing company which totally sucks in eyes, i hate having temp jobs so wtf did i go there?? oh well.

I didn't go to the gym on Tuesday which i know i should have it would have made me feel better about myself. Chavez was coming over that night, and for some reason i was feeling really depressed about my breast, almost worried but i didn't find nothing. They were just looking very small and lower ewwww in know.

Anyway i showered and got all ready for Chavez, smelled good, hair was cute and so was my makeup, even though all of that wouldn't matter later lol. I always play shut it down my drake, every time before he gets there, to me its a very sexy song i love it always gets me in the mood for him lol.

"Cause together we shut it down,down,down," ;)

He got there around 11pm. Lets just say he was acting very comfortable and it was funny lol.
after taking for a while, we started our make out session on the couch then we ended up in my room he wanted to lay on my comfy bed, we ended up jumping on the bed for a while. I told him i was feel very depressed about my boobs and how i really wanted a boob job,he stopped kissing me pulled back and said i wouldn't talk to you. I just kinda looked at him like oh yea whatever i dont care, but i did care a little bit cause he was serious. He said i look fine just the way i am and he likes me this way without a boob job. I still had my tough guard up and said well sucks for you, i'll have fun without you.

After that the night continued just fine, he calls it sweet love making i call it fucking. so after that we got comfortable and laid down in bed it was pretty late and we both had to be up and ready and out of my place by 6am for work. In the morning we said our goodbyes.

I had a great day to myself, since the baby slept in and also took a long nap almost 3hrs.
When 4pm came around yesterday wed. i headed to the gym, came home showered and got pretty.

I still have no idea why i got all pretty but i did. I had nothing to do last night, but i was in the mood for sushi and a movie so i ordered my sushi and hit up redbox finally watched eat pray love, i think i'm liking the book better, kinda fell asleep towards the end. i went to bed around 11pm my rude roommate was still awake making noise.
I had to be up at 5:45am guess what time he went to bed, 5:30am yup up all night play video games!!! like wtf who does that?? i know its your day off but geez.
anyway another post late tonight, will let you know how today went.